ydae went back 2 sch 2 finish painting e draco wall..yupz..finally gg 2 finish le..might b hafing e lame opening ceremony on mon..hais..lame sch haf lame ceremonies..den i saw her..she gg 2 netball..she looked shag..tink she din reali haf a gd slp last nite..cldnt msg her..she surrendered her hp mah..*SaDz* den her camp ended real soon..so she went hm 1st..aft tt i met her 4 lunch..stewpig he ji bao..dun sell noodles..next tym we r gg 2 e geylang de..so we ate yoshi..she din wanted 2 eat anythg..den i bought e prawns 4 her 2 eat..tho she kept saeing tt she's nt hungry..den we met grace..lollipop pei me n grace 2 cut our hair..haha..was looking thru e bks w her..den she saw e hairstyle tt she wanted 2 lyk..so in end all 3 of us had a haircut..hEe..it was so cool lor..mass hair cut..so my hair nw is so much shorter..quite nice la..i like her hair nw..she looks even sweeter n chio nw..*heart beating faster* but she kept commenting on her hair..so me n grace were lyk psycho-ing her tt she look nice w her hair nw..den we went 2 study 2gether..had a great day w her ydae...
but...i finally found e courage..2 tew her tat i'm nt str8... ...she still hasnt replied me..reali duno wad is she tinking n wad's her reaction..duno how 2 face her tml in sch..somemore we hafing same lunch break..dun feel lyk gg 2 sch tml at all...
i'm in a dilemma...i haf been tinking if i shd give up lollipop anotz...i realli lyk her alotz...but..sha-nice msg haf been appearing in my mind.."have it crossed your mind it might hurt her more than it hurts you? what if she meets the perfect guy who cant accept her past?" tat's was wad shanice sent 2 me...i reali wanted 2 be w lollipop..but if her turning crooked will ruin her future..den i rather nt b w her..i want her 2 b happy..always..hais..i juz duno wad 2 do nw..hope she will reply me soon... ...*downcast*