had a dream last night..
a weird one..
and a one that brings back sad memories..



i dreamt that me, grace, COACH, cheryl & fany were out going to have lunch at a shopping mall..
what a weird combi sia.. -_-

then i needed the toilet..and went to search for a toilet..



and coincidentally i bumped into *her..
she was having her wedding..
at a church next to the mall..
with that guy..whom i forgotten his name..


she wasn't in her gown yet..
just her usual casual clothes..
but she looked beautiful..


and somehow it brought back memories..
happy yet sad..



i remembered she used to write diaries de..
and she did wrote about me in her book.. but she refused to let me see the contents!
she said if we were still friends after 5 years..she would let me see it..

and 2007 would be the 5th year..

at that moment i was thinking OF COS we would still be friends ar..
never did i know that things would turned out to be like this..

i wonder if she still remembers what she said..


i also remembered her promising me that IF she were to have any kids..
i would be their god-ma..

haha..really wonder if that would ever come true..
haiz..




ok back to the dream..


then she invited me to attend her wedding.. saying that she would REALLY want me to be there at her wedding..
to give them my blessings..
apparently she did sent an invitation card to me..which i did not receive..

and then she had to leave to change into her gown.. and she kept nudging me "MUST attend the wedding hor.."


then we parted.. and i went back to the group..
SOOO wanted to tell grace all about *her.. to just pour out my sorrows..
BUT SHE WASN'T AROUND!!!

so was fany..and xianglin was suddenly there..
coach said that grace and fany went on a bus trip to japan and hk respectively..


ok i know the dream was incoherent and weird and nonsensical..


and at that moment i was REALLY feeling SOOOO miserable and depressed..
that even my gay part wasn't around to hear me sob..
and i really wanted to cry..
the feeling of hurt and heartbreak was so real!


then suddenly we were walking along a empty road and it was already dark.. i was still thinking of whether to attend the wedding anot..
den came eunice..
-__-

and that pig irritated the shit out of me..
kept insisting of wanting to know what's wrong with me..
and as usual i bit her and she strangled me..
so we started fighting..
then suddenly coach turned around and scolded us for being so violent..
saying "girls where can be so violent de..."

i still can picture her angry fierce look!
so scary..



just when i was about to break down and cry..
*she came running after me..
in her wedding gown..................






and then i woke up..

still can remember the dream.. cos the feeling was so real..




i wonder how is she now..
i wonder if the guy has been treating her well anot..
i wonder how's her work coming along...
i wonder how's her family..
and i wondered if she ever thought of me before..




peiyun, i miss you..
hope you are doing well..

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