everyday as i head towards the west of singapore, i told myself that today would be a better day. i have been through the worse, and i'm learning something new everyday, it won't be as bad as the 1st day.
so as each day i head to the west, i told myself that today is a good day, i have done my readings, i have learnt something from the previous day, i am here to learn more, and to prove that inside my skull i still have something that i'm going to be proud of.
however, as each hour ticks by, that confidence, that belief, that morale gets chopped up into million pieces and flushed down the toilet bowl. and at the end of the day, i head home feeling downhearted, depressed, demoralised..........
am i really that bad?
am i really that lousy??
am i really that terrible???
i have alot of questions, about myself.. but i have no answers..
is there anyone who can give me answers???
i wondered..
is it right in that decision i made years ago?
is there any regrets in that decision i made years ago?
should i have done something else instead of this?
so where is that passion that made me insist on that decision???
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